I didn't do shows for about 7 years, mostly because I felt that, even though Ohio accepted me, I wasn't good enough for the Utah over-saturated-with-over-achieving-talent scene.
Last spring ('09), my darling Leah convinced me to audition for a couple of shows with her (2 shows in 1 audition? sure!)
And you know what? They liked me! And I've been hooked ever since. Not only hooked, but extremely blessed. I've been reflecting on just how blessed as of late.
Audition 1 - Callbacks, wanted for a role but direct knew audition 2 had first dibs on me
Audition 2 - Callbacks, offered a lead role
Audition 3 - Callbacks, but had decided I wanted to be in show of Audition 4
Audition 4 - Offered a lead role without even having callbacks
Audition 5 - Callbacks, offered small role, I respectfully declined
Audition 6 - Callbacks, I respectfully declined the callback due to accepting role from audition 7
Audition 7 - Callbacks, offered a lead role
Audition 8 - Callbacks, offered a lead role
Audition 9 - Callbacks, ensemble - no thanks - I promised myself I'd take a break if not a lead
I truly feel I've had more than my fair share of luck. A 9 for 9 callback record? Offered lead roles in 5 of the 9 (5 of 8 if only counting callbacks I went to)? I am overwhelmed with gratitude for being able to continually do something I love, something that fulfills me and makes me entirely happy. The world is full of surprises and I am good enough!
So why am I so upset about not being offered a role for the latest audition? I know it had absolutely nothing to do with talent in this situation - I simply didn't fit what the director was looking for for the one part my looks fit. I may or may not have have been as talented as those offered other roles, but my age and look and color don't fit. What can you do? But still. *sigh* I guess being rejected never is easy. And this does free me up to audition for a show at a higher-quality theater where I would actually love to accept a chorus role, but that is a month or two away. Until then I'll just relax:-)
Now...what exactly is relaxing and how does one do this....hmmmm???
Looks like I DID get a part, I just somehow missed that I had to call a number instead of them calling me. How blessed can I possibly be? 6/9 (6/8 if you count callbacks I actually went to)!!!