Ironically, most of the ones whom I found the most beautiful were the ones who were most likely to complain, "I'm too fat." The things is, when they were saying this around me was always when I was overweight myself and they were a far cry from such state.
Every morning I would wake up and hear these girls degrade themselves. I looked in the mirror at my body, at least 3 or 4 sizes larger and at least 4 inches shorter than theirs, and felt worse and worse about myself. I would try one weight loss technique after the other. I did learn from this that keeping on trying is the key to success - all you have to do is not fail once:-) Back to the girls. My self esteem suffered tremendously from listening to these ladies I loved and admired and sat in awe of their beauty, yet they couldn't see it themselves.
Not out of the ordinary, at that time, was for men to befriend me to get to one of my roommates. I was okay with this because, hey, I got attention (oh the young and naive pre-25 Larissa). One day, one of these ladies again started in on how fat she was. I couldn't take it any longer.
"Do you know how it makes me feel when you talk about how fat you are? Don't you see how much smaller you are than me? Do you realize how much it hurts to realize how fat you must think I am?"
The thought had never occurred to her. She apologized profusely and went at least a couple of weeks without complaining.
We all need to be more careful of what we say and around whom we say it. I've been guilty recently and don't want to turn into that girl that is so caught up in my own struggles that I don't think for a moment of how my actions will impact others.
